ho-hum

had my very first college midterm today. it was in the same format as tests i would take last year in highschool AP english. i think i did alright, although we only had 50 minutes to complete it, which needless to say, isn't very much. got my first essay back wednesday and recieved....a B+. disappointing, yes--but when i talked to her about it in our little discussion, she said i basically had a very good and very strong essay, but one paragraph on the third page brought me down considerably. i knew it too! i knew when i wrote that paragraph that it was the weakest and when i tried to revise it later on, i knew i wasn't doing it justice. i knew it, but there was nothing i could do! i made revisions, but i kept racking my brain for more adequate corrections. there is something about me that just can't organize some of my thoughts. or as she pointed out, i seemed to lose focus. on that one damnable paragraph!!! goes to show how the pebble can really instigate the avalanche.

i hope to do better with my next essay. unfortunately, i haven't started it and i have another midterm the same day. no sleep for me sunday night. although i suppose i should be working on that at the moment...

well, then, here's the ploy. we are to write an essay based on Itard's report on The Wild Boy of Aveyron or on Francoise Truffaut's film The Wild Child. we are to focus on one sense mentioned in either report or film and show how this sense affects the wild child's (victor's) education and consequent civilization. our sense is that of sight. i have already filled out a grid for the film which i have watched more than once, but i can't seem to finish reading the report. i fall asleep or loose focus and whatnot, which hasn't happened with any of the other texts we were forced to read. i don't know what it is. might be the genre. i don't do well with reports, although the basic content is interesting. after all, how often do you read about a wild boy who spent almost 13 years in the forest? he can't speak, can't walk, can't think like a civilized person or use his senses such. but as its in report form, i find myself dozing...i might need to look to the film for the basis of my thesis and support.

five weeks up, five more to go. i cannot wait for winter break.