[is suspicious]

we have reached a certain...place in humcore. we are reading Freud. i really don't know what to say about him. i don't think i've read anything of his that isn't related to sex and sexual fears or sexual satisfactions. and they call this therapy? they claim that his theories helped his patients and even cured some of them, but i don't understand what sexual satsifaction has to do with helping hysteria and mental neurosis. is it because i have a somewhat conservative mind-set? is it strange for me not to relate to his assertions? can it really be that problems of the mind are really due to repressed sexual urges or whatnot? i would hope not, because i am still a virgin and think my mind perfectly healthy.

or maybe i'm just biased. maybe i get too defensive when it comes to analysis of sex and such defensiveness hinders my ability to relate to what he is saying--or at least consider it. but so far, i seem to be the only one who finds Freud's works a little...disturbing. is that the way its supposed to be? after all, this is all for the sake of therapy.

there is a section from Amy Tan's Joy Luck Club that i could particularly relate to, then and now. counselors don't help you, they're like crows patiently waiting to drink your tears. keep your miseries to yourself and no one will get the better of you. as far as i'm concerned, i won't confide in anyone unless i feel the moment is right. well, save for God of course.