walkin' blues

Woke up this morning, feel 'round for my shoes,
You know 'bout that babe, had them old walkin' blues.
Woke up this morning, I feel 'round for my shoes,
You know 'bout that babe, Lord, I had them old walkin' blues.

Leavin' this morning, I had to go ride the blinds.
I've been mistreated, don't mind dying.
This morning, I had to go ride the blinds,
I've been mistreated, Lord, I don't mind dying.

People tell me walkin' blues ain't bad;
Worst old feeling I most ever had.
People tell me the old walkin' blues ain't bad.
Well it's the worst old feeling, Lord, I most ever had.

Blues. even the name sounds dark and unfathomable. there's something about it that relaxes me. the simplicity of it and the relevance. even though most of the songs are full of sadness and misery, there's something about the sound that comforts me. its not pretentious. its human hands and guitar strings. its a foot tapping the beat on the floor. its salt on a stage with a rolling, sliding tap dance. its knowing you're life isn't perfect. its malted milk.

*shakes head* but i don't "know blues" like some people do. maybe that's why the music comforts me, because i don't know. and deep down, i don't want to know. Eric Clapton was addicted to drugs during the peak of his career in Cream. he spent time at the Crossroads rehab center. he knows the blues. Billy Holiday succumbed to selling her body to survive. she got a job singing in night clubs. she died of an unshakable addiction to heroine. she knew the blues. ray charles--he also knew the blues.

just listening to their songs makes me think these dark, quiet (boring) thoughts.

the wedding is still scheduled for september 17th.

tomorrow i have a midterm. on friday i have a paper due.

for madeyes, if you read this sometime after you get back: congratulations! i'm glad that your taking a break means you can take advantage of all these things. have fun relaxing!

woke up this mornin', feel around for my shoes...